Just in case you didn’t already know, I’m one of those “flexible control freaks.” Meaning I can be flexible within certain limits. Take me out of those limits and I spiral faster than a gumball coming out of one of those machines I actively avoid in order to prevent a toddler tantrum. (She thinks they are all balls, because one can never own too many balls. Similarly, one can never have too many stains from melting, colorful objects 😱. Also, who normally has an abundance of quarters on them??)
My spiraling doesn’t usually result in a delicious, fruit flavored piece of gum. I’m usually all anxious, frustrated, and salty. Not literally salty. Well maybe, because I tend to sweat when I stress. ANYWAYS.
Please also keep in mind that it doesn’t take a big event to make me spiral.
For example, a couple of times a week, I like to go to a boot camp class at my gym. This class meets during the time I normally get dinner ready. Meaning my brain usually goes into panic mode. “Oh no, our normal time to make dinner is now filled with a different activity- What will you eat? How late will you eat dinner? Will this push back bedtime? What’s the fastest meal you can make? Can you make something beforehand?”
I can’t think clearly. Mostly because when my brain is told it can’t do/have something, it responds by fixating on that thing I can’t have instead of brainstorming things I can do/have.
You may be asking questions like:
Why don’t you just use your crockpot? (If you are curious why I don’t often utilize my Crock-pot, please click here.)
Why don’t you just eat a sandwich or something easy?
Why don’t you just pick up dinner?
This are all valid questions, and they contribute something I lack in these moments. Perspective.
My brain benefits from perspective. It benefits from questioning my expectations and my motivations. Why do I do the things that I do? What needless limits have I placed on myself? Where have I added unnecessary stress to my life?
Who says I can’t make spaghetti for lunch instead of dinner?
This “dinner dilemma” is obviously a tiny issue (that honestly takes up about 5-10 minutes of my time).
I’m thankful for people and resources to help me combat the “little” anxieties that often consume me. Encouragement and support mean a lot to the anxious mind.
More than that, though, I’m thankful for the unending perspective, grace, and love found in Scripture. I’m thankful to be the daughter of a God who brings peace, joy, and grace to any situation- even to the situations that I’ve fooled myself into thinking I’m in control ;).
I’m praying for a mind that rests instead of worries. I’m praying for a mind that hopes in something greater than my own strength. I’m praying for my perspective to founded in truth.
“Then, turning to his disciples, Jesus said, “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food to eat or enough clothes to wear. For life is more than food, and your body more than clothing. Look at the ravens. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for God feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than any birds! Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And if worry can’t accomplish a little thing like that, what’s the use of worrying over bigger things? “Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? “And don’t be concerned about what to eat and what to drink. Don’t worry about such things. These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers all over the world, but your Father already knows your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and he will give you everything you need. “So don’t be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom.”
Luke 12:22-32 NLT
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”
Philippians 4:6-8 NLT